Friday, July 04, 2008

Of Contemplation

An entire day of thinking has come and gone.

Not even-- Not even thinking. My version of thinking, when I sit down to write good old-fashioned research papers, is a normal person's fretting

The way it goes for all of my roommates, when they write their respective research papers for psychology and biology:

Sit down. Type constantly. Get up approximately 2.75 hours later, completely finished.

The way it goes for me:

Wake up. Immediately spread out all research materials. Type my heading. After consulting research, type a sentence. Read. Edit. Consult research materials. Type another sentence. Read. Edit. Read the two sentences together. Huff in dissatisfaction. Pace. Delete sentence one. Huff. Stare blankly into space. Edit sentence two, which is now sentence one. 

You get the idea. And yes, every editing session I sit down and have with a sentence is highly significant. Perhaps not that efficient, but... Um... Yes. My writing process has always been a bit complex and, as the assignments have gotten more difficult, it has only gotten more so.

Another English major once told me that opening the Microsoft Word application struck her wordless-- the tension-- the nerves-- the stress-- words that should be flowing? nonexistent-- and it's true. All Type A English majors should wind up in a therapist's office at some point in their adult life due to a deep seated fear of Word.